Saturday, February 25, 2006

Thanks for being the biggest asshole I have ever known!

Thanks for making things incredibly easy!

Thanks for being such a big loser.

The only thing that sucks is that you will not remember this nite...but maybe it doesnt suck because now I can totally move one...find bigger and better things...because that is what I deserve.

It's too bad that I am so angry...mixed with the I FEEL SORRY FOR YOU speel...because your life is so pathetic. If you keep going the way you do-you will never find happiness...circles...circles...circles...I feel so sorry for you...and the people that love and care for you so constantly hurt the ones that are near to you even though that is not what you want to do...I hope you will find the help that you need so desparately soon...because you need it so badly. Stop hurting those around you and especially stop hurting yourself...
posted by Rachel at 3:59:00 AM -
Saturday, February 18, 2006
Feeling like Death.

I feel like shit...and it really sucks!

I went to emerg Tues. nite...nice Valentine's Date eh...? With a DOC. I was having chest pains and trouble breathing...and feeling faint. After a 2.5 hour wait which is apparently not bad I got to see the doc.

And the verdict is: I have Pneumonia and Pleurisy. Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! So I am on drugs now...but woot woot for me...I had a violent reaction to one of them this morning at 6am. Yeah for vomit and diarreha. I was so sick that I unlocked my doors and had my phone with me cuz I thought I was going to have to call 911 because I was having trouble staying concious. But then I vomited and was fine. LOL

Isnt that exciting news boys and girls. Well I hope I feel better by Monday because I have another big contract starting. Sigh.

Pray for me.
posted by Rachel at 4:36:00 PM -
Thursday, February 16, 2006



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Tuesday, February 14, 2006
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Monday, February 13, 2006
Some trust in chariots, and some in horses; But I will remember the name of the Lord my God.

Psalms 20:7
posted by Rachel at 9:09:00 PM -
Monday, February 06, 2006
i hate you!

i am so mad at you...i was fine...and then you came along.

i should be over you by now...but i am not. i dont want to feel this way. how come i cant make the feelings go away. how come i cant make you go away...out of my mind...out of my thoughts...out of my dreams...

you said that you didnt want to hurt me...
but i couldnt help falling.
...i am hurting.

is that so bad?

is it so hard to believe that you are worth hurting over? that you are special. that the thought of you and who you are completely blows my mind and soul...that i am in awe of you...your talents...who you are inside and out...

...and to think...this pain could all go with me...just open your heart again one last time.
posted by Rachel at 9:00:00 PM -
Friday, February 03, 2006 is so good to be working again...and 14 hour days to boot. i have contracts lined up until atleast the end of april...oh and i am definately moving by the end of this month cuz i got evicted...yay! that's all for now.
posted by Rachel at 12:38:00 AM -

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